HOW TO LIVE A LIFE

Yes I'm with someone.

Starting today I'll talk about my "guardian angel" ..
the best thing that happened to my life..

I miss my guardian angel..
hope that finals will end soon..

Yes my guardian angel is very smart. A law student in fact..
And Im very proud of my guardian angel..

6 days to go before our first month..
Its been like years..

I just love my guardian angel

I promise..

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Labels: Guardian Angel, Music, Senti Mode

Labels: Senti Mode, UP Stories

Labels: Senti Mode, UP Stories

I was so sick since last tuesday. Thank God, I feel better now since I already ate a meal with rice. ...ahh..i will update my bog next time :-)

Labels: Senti Mode

I was saddened when I heard what happen to your mom last week. You know, it is the same month when my mom passed away last year. She died of heart attack during her dialysis session because of late stage renal failure. It is the day before I, supposedly, will start in Pisay. I know how it feels to lose a love one, especially loosing a mother. It is the hardest part in everyone’s life. Most of the time, moms are our best friend who understands us most; they act as our protector who will defend us in every quarrel; and our savior who will save us in any kind of danger that we faced in our lives.

I don’t know why I am writing this one since we are not even close with each other. We never had a chance to talk about our experiences that we encounter with our students. Or simply saying, I never had the opportunity to befriend you.

I was thwarted when I learned that you will not come back again in school this year, since you were accepted in a scholarship to study abroad. The feeling I felt can be matched up to my first heartbreak during my high school days. I know that I lost an immense opportunity to know a great person. If I just have the courage in knowing you better during the past months, I can say that it will be better for both of us. I am like an high school boy who is too torpe to his prospect prom date. A teenage boy who’s having butterflies in his stomach whenever he sees this young teenage girl in the cafeteria. I am too foolish to be frightened by my insecurities. I lost a battle where in fact I never tried to fight into. Were staying in the school’s dormitories but by no means, I never seek to catch you. We handle the same students who frequently tease us as a possible teacher-couple in school. I never learned my lessons.

For the past 23 years of my life, I never matured.

But for now, I am happy for your decision to continue further studies. I just want to say that you’re smart, beautiful and charming. Those are the qualities that every man is looking for.

I wish you luck. I hope that we’ll bump each other in the future...

Labels: Senti Mode

Bakit ngayon nabigyan ng lakas ng loob ay ngayon pa naramdaman ang panhihina ng aking pagkatao. Ang hangad na sumaya at lumigaya ay napalitan lamang na pagkahiya at paghuhusga sa sarili na ilang dekada na iningatan at inayusan. Pinilit ko ang aking sarili na makisabay sa dinadaanan ng karamihan. Ngunit sa pag aakalang yaon ang karapat-dapat at kung doon liligaya, iyon pa ang pinaka di-tamang pagapasyang aking pinag pasyahan makalipas ang maraming taon dito sa mundong ibabaw. Dahil nga ba unang pagkakataon lamang iyon kaya’t hindi naging ayon ito sa aking pinangarap at pinaghandaan.? Paano kung sa susunod ay lalo pang mabigo ang kahihinatnan ng aking pagtatangka? Ganito nga ba ang buhay? Isang buhay na dapat makisaksi, makibahagi, makiramdam at mabigo. Sana naman ay magtagumpay ako sa mga susunod na pakikibaka sa aking mga hinahangad. Alam ko na sa huli ay ako’y liligaya din pagkatapos na ilang pagkakamali sa buhay. Ito nga ang buhay, a life that is full of experiences that we need to experience throughout our lifetime, either an experience that will make u smile or cry at the end. Sa mga susunod na araw, ako’y lalakbay muli. Ano ang aking gagawin sa pagkakataong ito? Ako nga ba’y dapat makisabay sa karamihan o maghahanap ng sariling daan upang ako’y makarating sa minimithi kung kaligayahan. Bahala na, at least sa banding huli na masasabi ko sa aking sarili na naramdaman ko ang paano mabuhay.

Labels: Senti Mode

Im thinking of resigning and finding a new job. I don't have problems with my current work and my colleagues are quite good. But, thinking of a new environment and workload is appealing to me these days. Yesterday, I want to 'restart' my life;Want to 'debug' all the mistakes that i made; I want to 'defragment' my priorities and I want to 'reformat' all the flaws that I have. But thinking all this things, ayaw kong isugal kung anong meron ako ngayon. The opportunities that I have now are enough for me. Got an invitation for interview in Mapua for an IT professional position, an Advertising Company and an International School but I'm still thinking if I will confirm my attendance to them.

Volunteerism 101
I got an email from VSO Bahaginan, a volunteer organization, and told me that they can't process my application since their looking for 25 years old above.They asked me to apply again in the next two to three years. Nowadays, I really want to commit myself in volunteering and helping others. I want to experience life. I want to know other people's lives. "Gusto ko maranasan ang pakikipagkapwa-tao".

Back to School?
My Kuya is asking me to enroll again in my Graduate Studies in UP this coming semester. Ive been on leave since last semester and I don't have plan in going back to school this June. My workload is too bad this coming months and I need to sacrifice Grad School for my work.

Its not easy wearing PinK
I woke up at around 6:45 today and noticed that I don't have clean clothes anymore for work. I got this old Pink Shirt from my younger brother and wore it today in my work. Just walking out of the dormitory to the 'Attendance Clock' station, 3 persons have greeted me a good morning and a 'nice pink shirt comment'. I don't know if that is a compliment from them or it just shows the Pinoy's "why do you wear pink" attitude. In pinoy culture, if a man wears pink, he maybe gay while, when a man wears a 'black rock shirt', he's straight. My sexuality has never been a problem to me but I think it has been for other people. Hope that mentallity will change as time goes by.

Labels: Pisay, Senti Mode